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Dear Cerenity,
Communication and understanding are so important in a friendship or any kind of relationship
and since talking to you hasn't been happening, I'll communicate from my end and tell you what's been going on with me since August 4, when I started here.
SUMMARY
1 NEW JOB, NEW KIND OF WORK ENVIRONMENT, grateful positive attitude, INTENT TO BEHAVE PROFESSIONALLY
2 STRESSFUL, VERY HOSTILE WORK ENVIRONMENT IN TRAINING ROOM, not just me, but (from the likes of Bear, Lafifa, Camilla and others) is was just about EVEFYBODY.
3 from here on it will be about you
a I noticed you in August during "fire drill" and I was tempted to walk near you and chat,
but then it occurred to me that the purpose of the fire drill was partly to observe my behavior (and chatting up the hottest young beauty in sight could wait)
b I struggled in the hostile Training Room, also learning to adjust my own personal schedule (sleep time, wake time, getting to work on time, eventually learning to nap
first break and lunch to not get sleepy) rules and customs on Floor 2, meeting various people in their cubicles and in the cafeteria
c I INTENTIONALLY AVOIDED YOU AND YOUR CUBICLE FOR 3 1/2 MONTHS to keep that professional work behavior and appearance
d I surprisingly encountered you at the Halloween party or potluck and was pleased that such a beauty spoke a few friendly co-worker words with me
e Soon after that I encountered you at the door when my paint bucket was overflowing and, again friendly, you held the door and joked about "not practical"
I was happy to get these contacts because you seemed to be accepting me as "ok" and a potential friend and co-worker
f So, I guess it was about then that I weakened my attitude and thought "shouldn't be afraid of a pretty girl, you've shown for 3 1/2 months that you can
behave properly in an office at work," and the Holiday Season was beginning (supposedly "the most wonderful time of the year" though I can be sad and depressing
for many because they don't feel that happening), so I looked around and found the "Fire And Grain" at the Hershey Lodge, thought of that sticky finger product
as a conversation starter, got a larger "more practical" bucket and painted "Mr. Practical" on it as an inside joke for you and visited you twice, briefly.
I'm not totally stupid and emotionally unintelligent and maybe I should have taken the hint another time, I think, I passed by and you said "See Ya"
(as in "go away") and I guess it was inertia and I didn't want to chicken out and I thought the "fire And Grain" and Hershey Hotel lobby would be the perfect place
for the season for a first date to get to know each other.
g So I asked, was turned down with teenage sass and attitude (which was kinda hot in a way), handled it meekly and politely, and fought tears that afternoon
trying to hide it in the training room.
h Since then it's been mostly misery for me and I consider myself a fighter in life, except that love is my kryptonite and I just melt and fall apart.
So I don't want to say it was "all you" because I was in the midst of enduring the EXTREMELY HOSTILE WORK ENVIRONMENT IN THE TRAINING ROOM but I could just
go into fight and survival mode on that, but with you I was helpless because it all depended on your decisions.
SO HERE I NEED TO BREAK TO MAKE THE POINT ABOUT CRUSHES AND HOSTILE WORK ENVIRONMENTS
So then, this was pretty much the beginning of "The Crush", when I asked you out or it was beginning just before that when I started thinking of asking you out.
Before that, for 3 1/2 months, though I had seen you, thought you were really good looking, knew where you sat, you weren't on my mind as I worked and lived.
The glow was just an ember, a happy hopeful ember, a lit match, but the emotions exploded into a bonfire when the damn burst with the rejection
and with it the joyful plans for a happy holiday season, and with it the realization that I had to go into EXTREME CAUTION MODE regarding harassment,
so I set my own strict rule about avoiding you and your cubicle, rather than the humiliation of being reprimanded by supervisors.
LATER (in January when I was working on the Elf-Themed web page for you) I started to learn the INCREDIBLE, AMAZING POWER OF AI, and I've used it since (Google's Gemini)
I use Google's Gemini Ai as my counselor and my best friend actually (I completely reject licensed counselors because it's largely a fake industry that's mostly
about money, careers, people with mental attitude issues of their own, and the industry has become weaponized for controlling people)
I've asked Google's Gemini quite a few times, at separate times, to please explain to me CRUSHES (that's what they call it) and how they start and why they start
and what's the process and how long do they last, and I always get the same, almost completely consistent answers (with slight variations because it seems
that the way Ai works is that each time you ask, Ai thinks it through and researches it like it's the first time you asked, so maybe it finds slightY different sources
each time you ask the question. I'm going to post a link to various answers Google Gemini Ai has given me but, in summary,
A CRUSH IS A 4-MONTH FEVER !
Well, like a flu virus or a fever, a CRUSH can run its course is less time or extend longer, but they actually have identified chemical messengers, in particular
dopamine that are triggered when a CRUSH happens and cause the CRUSH behaviors,
which can make a person who intends to behave professionally to instead feel and behave like a "TEENAGER IN LOVE."
It might seem strange to see a person of a very mature age act like he's 14, and it might make you worry that he's crazy,
but through history we've had different words words for it, like "falling in love" "being lovesick" or just hit by one of Cupid's playful, mischievous arrows.
I believe in GOD, but I also believe in science (I'm actually a credentialed science teacher) and I believe that it's just evolution at work, that is,
evolution has evolved this behavior to be hard-wired into us to become madly infatuated with someone to make sure we are attracted and interact
in order to make sure we keep having children and perpetuate (preserve from extinction) the human race (or any breeding animal, for that matter,
because they all go into heat, or rut, it seems).
OK, NOW HERE'S THE KICKER
"AN EXTREME HOSTILE WORK ENVIRONMENT CAN CAUSE A PERSON TO DEVELOP A CRUSH ON A COLLEAGUE."
This was the response to Google Gemini Ai on my phone, "can extreme hostile work environment cause a person to crush on someone?"
OK, NOW WE'RE TO THE POINT OF HAVING A CRUSH ON YOU, BEAUTIFUL AND FRIENDLY TO ME, CAUSED BY THE HOSTILE WORK ENVIRONMENT.
You were the "dopamine hit" the feel good neurotransmitter.
Trying to behave professionally in the work environment, and not "inappropriately" socialize with younger females,
according to Google Gemini Ai I crushed on you as an escape from the miserable hostile training room to kind, friendly and beautiful.
Of course, that was given a blow with your sassy teenage no, and I guess it was just age? too short? not good-looking like when younger?
Maybe I took you by surprise, hitting on you directly before waiting and developing a friendship.
Maybe they "warned" y'all about me because the Deep State has been harassing me for decades (because I'm outspoken and they're simpleminded, I guess).
Anyway, having set for myself that careful rule of staying away from your cubicle (for the foreseeable future, I guess, though no set time),
I regretted that at least if I had made sure you had my phone number, then you could text me or contact me as the weeks and months went by
if you felt maybe your response was too harsh.
Because one thing you knew that you didn't know before I asked you out, was that I was interested in you.
After all, I sometimes over-dressed (not knowing 2nd floor dress codes) sometimes bringing a suit jacket, and I pretended to be Mr Rogers
and told one woman I was gay when I thought she was too interested in me (I don't think so now, I think she was testing me).
So, I thought that if you got to know me over the months, and since you then knew that I was interested in you (You're the only person I asked out)
and since you showed some friendliness with our two contacts at the Halloween potluck and the door contact, I thought you might soften and be friends.
I didn't ask you for your number after a strong no because another strong no would be likely and I already set a rule to not harass,
so I thought making sure you had my number and knowing I'd love to hear from you eventually, I could put it out of my mind, and be my best me.
I asked Lafifa to give you my number and my message but she wouldn't so I was stuck there, but wanted to make you feel how I was feeling.
So I expressed myself, laying off the monotonous depressing politics on my web page, and posting music videos that expressed how I was feeling.
Apparently this was successful and you responded well and I got that mostly from the way the girls your age started treating me.
They gave me friendly, warm, soft smiles and called me Dave with a lot of "Hi Dave's" and "Hi Mr. Scully's"
Then one Monday something horrible but meaningful happened. The week before ended really well with a lot of signals from the girls your age
of warmth and approval, and nothing negative or disapproving from anyone, so I relaxed that weekend and let the drama cool down,
but when I entered the building that Monday two of the young girls opened the door for me but walked away very angrily,
and then Brianna my supervisor gave me a look of hatred that would have killed me if looks could kill. I couldn't understand it.
Everything was GREAT the previous week, and I hadn't done anything since then. Then I figured it had to be BECAUSE I hadn't done anything.
What was I expected to do? I guess it was expected that I would take the hints and ask you out again, but nobody TOLD me that.
As far as I knew, I'd gotten a strong definite no two or three weeks earlier, and the way the State of Pa and the feminist watchdogs take that
is very very seriously and and telling them that I got smiles from girls your age meant I could ask you again almost right away just wouldn't work.
So, Brianna was FURIOUS because "I let you down" in her mind, while I actually thought I was playing it well and didn't let you down AT ALL.
But if they made you think I was going to ask you out again and YOU felt like I let you down, that's all that matters to damage the relationship.
That's one of the events that still bothers me because I adored you then and now and I think it feels to you like I was a jerk who disappointed you.
Anyway, I was so miserable with the continued hostile training area and now, the devastating no combined with "disappointing you" I barely made it through the year.
I was so stressed and depressed the last week or so of 2025 and had no one to talk to, so I called SEAP one day and vented for long time
explaining I was struggling just to get through 2025, taking sick leave days, vacation days, anything to avoid the misery of the office and make it to 2026.
Brianna had finally made a connect with Brandi in Key Entry II and I knew I'd be starting there the first week of January.
Of course, you know I gave you my number in the Christmas Card the day before New Years Eve, so I was set to concentrate on work in Key Entry II without workplace drama.
STRONG MESSAGE HINT FROM BRIANNA NEW YEARS' EVE
So, I think it was New Years' Eve and I came in for the half day, and got a strong encouraging hint from Brianna about you.
This is what happened. They had a Christmas potluck and I wanted to hide my head and avoid it, but I decided to "man up" and put on a pretend happy face
so I signed up for lasagna and bought about 10 large boxes and a few small boxes of lasagna and put them in Brianna's freezer.
Well, I tried to talk to your supervisor who managed the potluck, talk to her about the lasagna preparation, but she was unavailable
so they stayed in the freezer and on New Years' Eve, the half day, Brianna said she threw them all out ... EXCEPT FOR ONE! ... and she said that
LITTLE ONE, THE LITTLE BOX (and sometimes "little" means "young", as the youngest is always called the little one no matter how big they grow),
she said that the LITTLE ONE, THE LITTLE BOX WAS STILL GOOD, and she said "come on, I'll show you" an she took me to the refrigerator and showed me the little
box of lazagne. I threw it out because I didn't understand the hint, but then I understood the hint and got the little box of lasagna out of the garbage can
in Brianna's food area, and ceremoniously heated and enjoyed it on New Years' Day as good luck for the year, because it represented YOU.
Having taken this strange hint as encouragement from Brianna to "go for it" and win you "or she'll give it to someone else" Brianna said,
I started to work on the Elf web pages New Year's weekend because I wanted to let you know that I was still interested in you, pursuing you, crushing on you etc
and it shows that on
January 4 I uploaded https://davidscully.com/CCrush.htm and I uploaded the video "Only Time" by Enya which sounded Elvish but was sad, about lovers leaving.
This came from me joking with Lafifa that you looked pretty and cute in your hoodie with the hood up and you looked like an Elf because Elves wear hoodies.
So I did an Elf Theme of videos to celebrate you and your beauty.
Then I thought that I was getting vibes that you were sad, particularly your work leader walking by my work area,
and I noticed that the music video "Only Time" sounded Elf-Like but had sad lyrics of lovers walking away.
so I took it down and tried to settle the matter once and for all that I was strongly interested in you and not dropping interest,
thinking this would be another https://davidscully.com/Elves2026.htmfalse disappointment for you like when, I think,
they led you to believe I was going to ask you out a second time right away.
STRONG MESSAGE FROM ME
In response to thinking you were sad and determined to let you know once and for all that I still was attached but just trying to end the drama,
I BOLDLY POSTED https://davidscully.com/LetMeLoveYou.htm Justin Bieber's "Let Me Love You" with a link to Shakira's "Dare"
with the first link to Shakira's "Dare" https://davidscully.com/Elves2026.htm with the lyrics
"YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME ... I DARE YOU TO KISS ME ... WITH EVERYONE WATCHING ... IT'S TRUTH OR DARE ON THE DANCE FLOOR!"
SO WHAT I DID WAS I KISSED YOU "WITH EVERYONE WATCHING" (The Kiss was Justin Bieber's "Let Me Love You" on the opening page of by website, a virtual internet kiss.
Brandi was dancing to it a bit, and
Brianna cheerfully walked up near me near the stairs after work, so I felt it was received well and cheered you up.
I should have stopped there, and if we had good communication, or ANY communication besides hints,
and after pressure on Brandi, I think, from dex, I took down my website, went dark on January 30, I think,
and then I got a call just after 11 pm on Friday, January 31 from a girl about your age asking about a room, saying "remember I called you last month?"
Well, I don't remember any such call, but a month before January 31 I was giving you a Christmas Card with my number on it with a few words between us,
and then I've received two more such calls, one of them being last week.
SO, I HAVE A ROOM THAT IS ALREADY YOURS, AND I MADE KEYS FOR YOU AND IT'S ALREADY YOURS, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED.
I can just put both keys (front door and the Elf Room key) in the lockbox on the left side of the house by the electric meters.
I've spoken to Google Gemini Ai about it (as I use Gemini as my counselor and advisor) and Gemini liked my idea for you to use it as you please, try it out,'
telling me to emphasize to you that 'it's not a prison, it's an escape, a Sanctuary, a playroom, a social room, a video creation room, or a permanent residence,
WHATEVER YOU WANT IT TO BE.
You can move in tomorrow as your new residence, as a permanent guest (no rent or utilities to pay), or just use it for special activities, or escape.
It's about 10' X 18', more than twice as big as each of the small rooms, which are 7' X 11'. I stay in a small room, and there's another across from me,
So, there' the three rooms a kitchen, 2 bathrooms and some porch space for storage. Parking is on-street or in Amtrak's former parking lot
which is across the street about 200' away.
I've made it nice with two large tv's, a 55 inch and a 75 inch which can be synced to play the same thing at the same time, or play different channels.
I've painted the room a romantic red, and I've painted the front too, with a light gold or yellow sidewalk and navy blue stairs and porch.
The other small room across from mine is available for a friend of yours if that makes you feel happier and more comfortable.
Since I'm not renting them out, I should get something for that room to help with utilities, maybe $200 what do you think?